changes

Everything is always so... rushed. I wake up with just enough time to do what i gotta do before running out the door. if i have to leave at 7am then i get up at 630. if i dont have to leave until 1pm then i get up at 1230. It makes no sense whatsoever! gotta make some changes there.

So, school is over for me. dropping two of my classes and the other two i am keeping my grades without doing any extra work. i feel like im taking advantage of the victims of VT with this altered grading policy for the semester... but gotta bring my grades up since i slacked for a few semesters! gotta make some changes there.

going to the doc today, trying to get a doctor's note for the weekend since i didnt go to work. i really need to quit the Star but i cant seem to get over losing the $700/month. thats rent and the cell phone bill! why pay for a cell phone when i barely use it though? people call me and i never call them back. gotta make some changes there.

my apartment is a wreck! if we ever clean it, we only clean the small area we are trying to use for something else, so it gets trashed again almost immediately! gotta make some changes there.

actually, there is a whole list of things i am trying to change. this is nothing new, ive always been one to look at my life and make lists of the things i need to change. whats new this time is that i'm taking a different approach to it, and actually making progress!

The reptile room/office is halfway clean. it doesnt look like it, because there are piles all over the floor - bathroom, toolbag, living room, kitchen, trash, magazines, etc. this is the room we (or i, actually) throw everything in when i either a) dont want to put it away, b) dont know where to put it, or c) dont have time to put it away.

the other night i stayed up all night and filled up a few more boxes with everything on the floor. this is nothing different. but then i actually started going through the boxes! yay for me! i only got a third of the way through with 3 boxes down and 6 to go, but hey... baby steps...

the most important changes im trying to make right now are to get on some depression meds again and to quit smoking. im hoping that the former will help with the later.

i hate to say it (because of the dire consequences) but some things seem to be going well for me right now. i got a new job at the restaurant and only have to work part time at the Star, which is awesome! school is out for now, meaning i have time to try to institute some other changes before school starts again, hopefully with very good results for the next semester. so, im having a good time right now.

the bad news is that everytime things seem to be going well, there is some drama that begins and brings everything crashing down. i'm just trying to keep a positive attitude and plow through...